Positive body image or lack thereof

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I am preaching to the choir today. 

I have to be honest. I agreed to do this post because it just about the last thing I want to do. Like ever. It’s down there with stubbing my bare toe repeatedly on the pavement.

Dress up and have someone take full body shots of me?! No thank you.

But I decided to do it regardless of my poor body image issues. You see, I loathe the way my body looks now. I am the heaviest I have ever been and not at all happy about it. I need a haircut badly and I haven’t had my eyebrows groomed in like….a really long time. I could tell you a host of other imperfections that bring my spirits down at times.

So needless to say my body image after baby (ies) isn’t at an all time high.

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But I said, you know what? To heck with it.

I am proud of what my body has done. Not necessarily proud of the exact way it looks but proud nonetheless. I have been either pregnant or breastfeeding since November of 2011. 2011 ya’ll….with no break.

So I decided to give myself a little break.

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I also decided that I am worth a little more time and effort. My babies are at an age where they are sleeping consistently and I can have some time back for me. So why not get up before them and take a shower and get ready for the day? Put a little makeup on…earrings. Sometime besides sweats you know?

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I stopped breastfeeding in October. It was time. I needed to get myself back if that makes sense.So now I can exercise and workout without the fear and guilt of losing my milk production. I am ready to shed this baby (and breastfeeding) weight.

In a strange way I wanted to document myself as I am now to prove that I am proud. I am thankful for my health and the ability to incubate and nourish babies. It is something I never want to take for granted because I know not all have that ability.

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I was so thankful to have the opportunity to give Eshakti a try. They were so kind to let me pick an item to try and it lent itself perfectly to my mission of spending more time on myself and feeling good about what I wear.

I picked this chambray top immediately because I knew it would look good with leggings and boots! The amazing thing about Eshakti is that ALL of their clothes are customizeable with size and style. For example, I wanted this shirt. I could either choose from standard sizing (sz 0-36W) or I could enter my measurements and it would be custom made. I chose standard sizing based on the measurements provided and it fit great! But that’s not all. This shirt was originally normal length but I knew that I wanted it longer to cover my leggings so I chose tunic length and voila’ they made it longer. I also had the option of customizing the sleeves (short, elbow length..etc.) but I loved them the way they were!

Their prices are reasonable and your first customization is free! You can also get a $30 voucher by visiting their website and being a new customer! I would definitely recommend giving them a try!

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Weaning from the swaddle: My secret weapon

**Update: Since writing this post my daughter went on to sleep happily in the Zippy until she was 18 months. Eventually moving up to a size large. My newest daughter is using them now and we are having the same success. We love this item!

My daughter who is now almost 8 months old was a swaddle baby. I don’t mean she was a baby who enjoyed being swaddled, I mean she was a baby who HAD to be swaddled. You mamas of swaddle babies know what I’m talking about.

It started out innocently enough, swaddling her in the early weeks as moms often do with newborns. It comforts them, keeps them warm and helps contain the startle reflex from jolting them awake and the subsequent wails that follow. I don’t remember at what point exactly I realized that she was addicted to the swaddle. Maybe it was when I noticed that I was the only one who could successfully put her down for a nap. It was because of the way I was swaddling her. I guess you can call me the enabler.

By the time she was 3 months old I knew we were in trouble. I tried the gradual weaning method but that was laughable, girlfriend just could not fall asleep without her arms secured. She was like a crazy ninja with those hands. We tried a few sad naps of going cold turkey without it, too much crying for this mama. It probably would have worked eventually but I personally don’t let my little babies cry that long if I can help it.

By 5 months old she was busting out of every swaddle we owned. Did I mention that she was in the 99th% for weight? You try swaddling that. The only one that could contain her was an Aden and Anais swaddle blanket. And even that was failing us. To make matters worse I couldn’t even move her to her crib yet since she was rolling,so she was still sleeping in the Rock and Play sleeper. She was miserable, we were miserable and I didn’t know what to do.

Enter the Zipadee-zip.

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I first read about the Zipadee-zip on one of my Babycenter birthboards that I frequent. I researched it and my honest thought was “The last thing I need is another thing for my baby to get addicted to”. I put it in the back of my mind and about a week later as I was up yet again with a baby who couldn’t sleep because she was miserable. I ordered it. Right then and there, from my phone in the middle of the night. It was shipped SO fast. I was shocked and elated. I put her in it right away and she napped well. Much better than usual.

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I was expecting a miracle and while it wasn’t an overnight success it was a vast improvement from what we were used to. I originally ordered her a medium, then went back and ordered a small. After we received the small we were home free. The small was snug enough that she still felt secure. We moved her to her crib and there she has been soundly sleeping for 2 months. She knows when the zippy is put on it’s sleeping time. She has moved to a medium and is sleeping 12+ hours at night with 1 wakeup to eat. She naps 3 times a day for at least an hour. I call that a success!

I thought I would feel frustrated that she is “dependent” on the zippy to sleep. But you know what? I don’t. because it’s not hindering her in any way.  She can roll and move around. She can pick up her paci and put it in her mouth and it keeps her warm. My mind is at ease. Plus have you seen how cute the prints are on the Zipadee-zip website? I know I will have no trouble picking her out cute patterns to wear. Speaking of, I really need to order another one!

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***This was not a sponsored post. Just me sharing what really works in hopes that it will help someone.***